Crystal clear

No magic ball,

yet the future

is crystal clear -

If I fail this mission,

I lose all I love -

All,

that I've been fighting for

Regardless of effort,

I will be cast into darkness

never to return

The pressure is insurmountable

and counter-intuitive

as I will not fail -

I will fight harder than ever before

To make the glass shine,

will take sweat and toil

just like our garden,

where our two hands meet,

to pull the weeds

from the soil

But if I should fail (again)

and your hands

cannot join mine -

then leave me there

on the garden bed -

turn the soil,

and bury me

forever more